While I’m on the topic of Pity Parties…
I would like for some man, that I like back in an equal way, to not be intimidated by me, not think I am weird, not think I am too intense… just not be scared off. I am just so tired of being “too much”. I also refuse to be less than I am to make people like me. This all flips back to my aforementioned jealousy (of normal people) and loneliness (because I cannot connect with other people).
A simple test to determine whether your own explanation for your failures is true or false: is the explanation self-aggrandizing? Does it fit a narrative you’ve constructed for yourself where you’re the hero (tragic or otherwise)? If the answer is yes to either question, you should re-evaluate, for realz.
